I am Don Quixote，我是 唐吉訶德

我是 唐吉訶德，相信不是很多人知道什麼是 唐吉訶德。唐吉訶德 是西班牙作家塞萬提斯於1605年和1615年分兩部分岀版的反騎士小說。故事背景是個早沒有騎士的年代，主角唐吉訶德幻想自己是個騎士，因而作出種種令人匪夷所思的行徑，最終從夢幻中甦醒過來。

原本的 唐吉訶德 本來是嘲諷那些不自量力、脫離現實、自以為是一代大俠的這一類阿Q型人物，其像徵符號意義不知不覺漸漸轉化，如今已多被用來指那些勇敢堅持自己理想，敢於挑戰社會不合理現象、不顧眾人嘲笑仍堅持一己信念之人物。

這個就是我目前的狀況，就比如說我現在喜愛的一個女人，無論身份到背景，或到身邊的人，甚至想法，性格，態度，喜好，幾乎都完全相反。別說自己身邊的朋友，甚至連她自己也在一直說我們是不太可能擁有將來的。

她身邊一大堆人都想圍繞著她，而我什麼都不是，甚至連擁有自己一部車都沒。其實什麼是現實，什麼是幻想，其實這些都沒分別的，畢竟都是在同樣一個時間，同樣的空間。一個人就是需要幻想來繼續，需要現實來了解，少了一方都是很可悲的事情。

其實不只她，甚至很多事情，身邊很多朋友都會嘲諷自己的一些選擇，雖然有些是被說服，但有些卻依然還繼續，最後也沒說什麼，因為得到出來的成果還不錯。所以就如 唐吉訶德 那樣，如果擁有了自己的信念和想法，就應該努力去保護，去堅持。

就像遇到現在的她，難得我心裡真的愛上了她，無論前路多困難，多辛苦，多痛苦，都會繼續下去，雖然她還不相信，對我也還沒到愛的地步。其實也因為很多人忘記了，困難，辛苦，痛苦的後面，也有著 輕鬆，快樂，開心的。

我是 唐吉訶德，請讓我繼續堅持下去吧～

現實還是虛幻？

有些人在現實的活在虛幻世界裡，有些人卻虛幻的活在現實世界裡。其實什麼現實什麼虛幻的世界，都是沒分別，都是同在一個世界，並不是社會世界把你們逼成這樣，而是你們自己把社會世界搞成這樣。

看見網路上的一些什麼現實人生大道理，不是給人看了更積極，而是看了更消極和偏激。大道理誰不懂，只是未必都適合所有人。反而學了不是保護自己，而是更折磨更傷害自己也傷害了他人。

與其學會去排斥，去拒絕，去拋棄，還不如學會去接受，去承擔，去了解，道行夠高了，什麼問題都看得開了，是理解而看得開，不是傷得而看得開。

但最重要還是溝通，沒有溝通就沒有信任，沒有了信任就會有猜忌，埋怨等，然後產生了誤會，然後就開始消極偏激的看世界，再寫出什麼現實人生大道理。

地球人的軀殼，外星人的心聲

外星人沉默的看著地球人如何的生活，如何的去喜怒哀樂，想去融入卻不能，但可悲的是，其實那外星人忘記自己是地球人，終於可以跟地球人一樣的生活，一樣的喜怒哀樂，但可惜的是，其實已經習慣了自己是外星人的身份，最後，只能以地球人的身份和外星人的心態，繼續活下去。

Its goin reborn soon~~~~

After few years of laziness, its almost time to reborn my blog~~~~

Another dream in a deep sleep

It was a night time, I was riding a bike like usual i back to home. Suddenly, i started feel thats hard to control my handler.,feels like something lock and i cant spin my bike's handler. I look at the sky, saw some fireworks of those burning asteroids. Then i heard a weird sound from the sky, when its getting close to me , its the sound that something like cry or scream of ghost. Something green fly towards me. Now its just infront my face, i saw its looks like a face with green gas around. Although knew i'm dreaming, but my body seems like paralyze in real life, then i try to shout then can success make me awake. Its too bad, wasted, i should continue and see whats going on, coz its really looks so cool and awesome, but i know if i letit continue, something bad gotta happen, i'm not prepare yet. Perhaps i can have another try when i'm ready, although its just a dream, but it feel so real.
When i think it back, i know why i got this kind of dream in a situation like this. It is just because i sleep with my tired body and i did listen to ghost story and watched the movie that about asteroids hitting the earth.


By EnigMcD

A Dream From A 5 Minutes Nap

I was driving, it looks like i'm driving inside a car but the handle is a motorcycle's. I'm driving on the road like always do (of course). Then with something i dont know just happened, and looks like everyone (vehicles) included me start to move faster. And i'm almost out of control, keep use the break, from my hand's, then use my leg's, then use handbreak( hand's only on motorcycle,weird vehicle huh).

Now, the roads also starting become weird, from upside down to downside up, and i could feel that everythings goes too furious, I'm always almost hit the vehicles infront me, things like almost out of control.

After the 'dancing' road, i saw many accidents, many vehicles crashed, upside down, burning, everywhere looks chaos. Have a part that most impressed me is when i crossing a burning truck, it suddenly explode, and my 'screen' shacking because of the vibration. just nice it dint hurts me.

Then i woke up, look at the clock, it just passed 5 minutes. What a weird dream from a 5 minutes nap.

By EnigMcD

Alive to Live or Live for Alive?

Early morning, we wake up, then we eat, work, play, sleep...Every second, minutes, hours, days, months, years... This is our life, we still alive for doing this all things.
But are these all things for our life to live, or we just can live with this for still alive? Everybody have their own reason to live, but almost nobody have the reason to be alive.So what's the difference about live and alive?

Live-A progressing of almost what the mankind doing from the begin until now to future. It's traditional, rules, we just follow, obey.Reason? No exactly dont have, because we have to, or this only what we gotta do.

Alive-A reason why you still here to read this. But without know all 5W1H (What, Why, When, Where, Who, How) yet.

So are we alive just to live? Or we live because we are alive. We have difference answer to live, but i'm sure we are same answer to be alive.

By EnigMcD

Fair Or Unfair

Things, everything , are in balance. But sometimes we will feel they are unbalance, unfair.When we feel unfair, because we need the pay back, results or rewards that what we expecting in the same times.
Things are not always going let us success or get what we always need, but it doesn't mean it's unfair. Maybe we already had it what we hope, or maybe that's still not our time yet to get what we wish.
We cant blame on anythings that things came unfair to us, because when it is happened, we are just in 'dont have the right thing in the right time' this situation.
Worth or unworthy , deserve or not, fair or unfair, we cant decide, time will tell us what's their value. Because 1 minute happy smile, could made us lost something.
So things fair or unfair, just depends on how do you think.

By EnigMcD

How Lazy Am I ?

i'm lazy to move - i tried no leave my room in 1 week

i'm lazy to think - i still waste my time and without thinkin my future

i'm lazy to eat - i tried 5 days din eat

i'm lazy to sleep - i tried 4 days din sleep

i'm lazy to talk - i tried 3 days no sound from my mouth

i'm lazy to work - i tried 6 months din work

i'm lazy to look - i tried close my eye whole day

i'm lazy to care - i rather get hurt get prob than to care much

i'm lazy to guess - if dunno answer then forget it

i'm lazy to try - i can everyday do the same thing

i'm lazy to find - dint find then forget it

i'm lazy to search - search too much will make me headache

i'm lazy to solve - just let it be....etc

These records may change someday, there are still too much lazy that i'm always have, lazy no more my attitude, it's already part of me.

By EnigMcD

Selfish? No Such Thing

If one day, you have to make the decision. But the result will make other peoples din't get what they expected or lost something, they will blame you are selfish.

Maybe you really din't mean to make them dissapointed, or maybe you really did that business or decision just for yourself reasons. The other peoples won't really care your situation, they only care how much they lost or how dissapointed.

The meaning of SELFISH is for the peoples who do something that just only for their own benefits or goods, but din't think or care others peoples feeling, situations or what they care.

But in fact, there is no SELFISH this such thing. Because in this world, everythings that we do are just depends on 'What are you doing' , 'Who do you doing for' and 'How you doing'.

For example, if you did something that other peoples blame or complain that you are selfish, calm. Think it back again, if lets change the situation or the view, those peoples also selfish too because they never care how you feel, what's your situation or what do you want, they also just think about themselves, their benefit or what they expecting.

Once the dicision is in your hand, then you are the judge, you are the one to choose the better or the best answer. You have the right to choose the answer or decisions from 'What are you doing' , 'Who do you doing for' and 'How you doing'.

Everybody have their own right to choose what they want, to protect what they care or to keep what they need. Because everythings we do just either for ourself or for others. How you want to do is your choice, its depends on your judgement.

So there is no such thing like selfish, not all the answers are perfect good, the thing that exist is only how good or how bad you done.


By EnigMcD